Sad, melancholy, depressed even. This is how i would label how i have been feeling beneath my efforts at happy expressions. I think that my July posts have been carrying this theme. It must be the weather.
I have been learning that there is always a shadow and somehow it will always show up. Part of living life. It is woven into existence -- the ups with the downs. In order to nurture soul i must let things be without judgment. It forces me to introspect...distilling what truly matters and being brave enough to turn away what is not.
What gives me comfort is being detached from the usual: family, friends, even church. It is a wrestling match for myself alone.
